moved away.

asswipes.

am i someone who cannot be trusted, inside and outside my circle of trust?
am i living my life in such a manner that my family time and my social time conflicts ever so often?
am i a lying fucking hypocrite that spread rumours about other people lives, hoping that they will screw it up so i can enjoy?
am i toying with people feelings, thrusting them into a world of false hope and illusion?



those few questions repeated swirl and twirl in my mind, constantly preoccupying it. 
apparently. it is killing me off day by day.

i will try to make this as  much as a diary entry as possible.
i realise that many blogs and ij have their entries typed down (and severely edited) so that it is more convinent for other people to read them.
i want to try something totally different from the current trend.

frankly speaking, i went for my second real training, beside the pool training and stuff, totally slack. since demien was not there so the training was a little more slack. did drills and stuff. and i realise that my right hand passing is horrid. and i need to learn all the terms of rugby as quick as possible so that i might have a chance to break into the squad(yeah right). my physically state is an embaressment to rugby players all around and my skill can barely make it. i totally need help in this. ian, marvin, anyone who can help me, please do. 

meet jane at the bus stop, stopped and chatted with her for a a while. she somehoe made me think again about somethings. make me reconsider. about somethings. well. then i met sam the ham too. she say i stink, like so oh my god lar.! ok ok, i need to get home and bathe but ya, i am not not not stinky!!!! argh.. hahah.. cant meet up with YE due to things occuring to me. sorry girl. take care and do well for your promos. ok? cheers.

i need to go somewhere and slack my life away where no one bothers me for a day!
i need some personal enjoyment and peace and space... the list goes on and on...
i think that a girl now is not really neccessary, but putting in effort for one will be perfectly the right think to do.
a girlfriend= a investment with minimal return, a two way traffic for love and a girl nonetheless.

i changed, now is your turn to make a major one.6 months.(i hope)

Tags: weeeeehoooooooo
Current Location: home, heaven for boredom, hell for fun(kidding)
Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: blurry- puddle of mudd

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RACH ill fill your little world. (: says:

ASS!.

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well

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RACH ill fill your little world. (: says:

i saw you running in the pool like kukkooo too.

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russell. nightmare diminished. new dream rots. says:

RACH ill fill your little world. (: says:

HEEEY

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im not blur!

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your min is up

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RACH ill fill your little world. (: says:

BYE,

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hahahahhahahahahhaha

russell. nightmare diminished. new dream rots. says:

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slut.

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whore

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butch

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jerk

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jackpot

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disgusting creature.

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YOU

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SHUT UP

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ah

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you suck'

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what

russell. nightmare diminished. new dream rots. says:

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then ill lose

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russell 2, rachel 1

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russell. nightmare diminished. new dream rots. says:

ok.







if ppl are severely bored.. try this out.

noway.

ahhh

nice.

see if you can score back your debit.

i call you sth nice and you return it.

lets have a nice game.

haha

russell 2, rachel 0

rachel ng

=

pervert

jackass

flirt

bastard.

bung.

keep the flow.

hahah

bitch

idiot.

poof.

poff.

go back to wadever you are doing

ok.

russell 1, rachel 0

heehheee

u are a blur kukoo

i look like a kukooo, but a classy kukooo.

its ok lar.

haha

haha

ian saw too.

seriously .

ande i saw you woke up like with a face like a kukkooo like that.

its the post exam syndrome.
when you got so much time. not enough money. too little things to do.
well.
i was thinking(and trust me, i had loads of free time to think)
why must everything base on looks and image itself?
pretty girl comes by, *wooots*.
ugly girl walk pass, *damn, spare me*.
i am no angel myelf, truth to be told.

why do all the good guys with nice smiles lose out.
with all the bad boys winning no doubt.
nice-ties and gestures little appreciated.
with the face and image verbally mutilated.
tatoos, piercing, buffed bods and football stars.
anytime beat sweet smiles, nice dates and small car.
emo-ing is for the girls.
it is just not a sense of emotion for balls.

to all the good guys and a clean cut image, cheers.
to the girls who will never get a chance with us. bails.
to the girls who got us, sheer streak of luck,
to those who hates us, i dun give a fuck!

exams are so over, finally.
time for us to lean back and get a freaking break!
but as my dear friens ian law says it, it does not have the oomp* kinda feeling.
cos we did not put in effort for it, and the idea of failing is there.
dang.

forget it, time to rest.
i am in love with the stripper.....
now its should be' i was in love with the lesbo.
totally sucky, but i gotta live on with it. but what to do?
its sucks.
argh, come on!
i cannot swallow it.
toooooooo fucking difficult.
time to get over herm and a new gal.!!
and now, i bought new boots on a freaking budget.
my table is in  a freaking mess,
my life is in a freaking mess.
so so depressing, i seriously need a source of new found happiness soon.
i really do. the current activities i throw myself into are not helping.
so what i really should do is clear up my table and my life.
clean it up, find a space of personal comfort.
and maybe a new girl could do my life some good.
maybe.
or not..

who give a shit anyway.
come on lets par-ty!

sheer shock. lost for words and emotions

ENRIQUE IGLESIAS LYRICS

"Do You Know? (The Ping Pong Song)"

Do you know [x3]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

How can I love you [x4]

If you just don't talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.
(Do you know)
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never happened to me.
(Do you know)
But after this episode I don't see,
you could never tell the next thing life could be

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x3]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x7]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Do you know [x3]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away
(Do you know how it feels)
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

Do you know [x4]

Do ya




what a rush 
of good music.
overpowering stress from school work
the hectic schedule of last minute work being done.
lack the spending power.


girlfriend=heavy investment.
girlfriend=serious commitment.
girlfriend=loads of effort.
girlfriend=wohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
the rush


i still do not have the rush.
damn.

i wanna go through the cycle of love.
again.
but finding.

hahahahah
 emo post.
wth.
ok.




ps. ver it is ok that your face is slightly burnt, we are still your frens!

ENRIQUE IGLESIAS LYRICS

"Do You Know? (The Ping Pong Song)"

Do you know [x3]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

How can I love you [x4]

If you just don't talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.
(Do you know)
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never happened to me.
(Do you know)
But after this episode I don't see,
you could never tell the next thing life could be

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x3]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x7]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Do you know [x3]

[Chorus]
Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away
(Do you know how it feels)
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

Do you know [x4]
Do ya